Spoken Word: Happy.

I’ve decided that I’m going to paint myself happy.  I’ll use my favorite color; blue.  I’ll learn how to love and accept me, and I’ll try and forgive you.  I’ll use my favorite color; orange.  I’ll accept that I was destined to make mistakes because not many of us are born clairvoyant.  I’ll use my favorite color; yellow.  Instead of being comfortable with saying goodbye, I’ll learn to enjoy saying hello. I love spending time alone, but I hate feeling lonely.  Alone means that we’ll be together soon, and lonely means that we may never be.  Honestly, me without you isn’t the version that I ever expected of we.  I loved you, and I never dreamed that love could one day end.  And no, I’m not the type of person that once told you that I loved you, but today, I’m good with being friends.  I recently learned that sometimes, your heart has to break before it is able to fully open.  I’m not a pessimist, so I’m openly hoping.  I’m hoping that God hears the words that my mouth is too afraid to speak.  I’m hoping that God understands that I am just coming to terms with me.  I am not perfect, and neither are you.  Let’s do something different and try and live a new truth.  I’ll be all of me, and in turn, I’ll accept all of you.  While all of our scars don’t match, we both have them.  Despite our pains, together, you and I can live as us, and wouldn’t that be delightful?  I’m opening up…… Patrick

This week, please do something to help someone else for no other reason than to make their lives better.  As always, if you get to where you’re going, please don’t forget to leave a map for the rest of us.

One thought on “Spoken Word: Happy.

  1. Annmarie Thompson December 26, 2018 / 11:02 pm

    As always, your writing is wonderfully insightful. I hope to see some additional writings. Also, I hope all has been well for you over the holiday since you have shared that the holidays are hard for you.

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