In the words of my Mother, “Hey Ya’ll.” It’s been a while. It’s been a very long week, I’m tired, and I have so much that I’ve felt, but couldn’t say. You all know this is my transparent place. Here it is. My entire Life, I’ve been afraid of being dismissed. Yet, I’ve been dismissed. However, I have learned that with every dismissal, there is also a welcoming. When I worked in an ice cream factory, my boss dismissed me. My college advisor welcomed me. When law school showed me arrogance, public school showed me Love. When Love showed me pain, chance showed me Love. You see, I’ve learned that no matter what, you’re exactly where you’re supposed to be. Of course the past is romantic. Aren’t all things that you’ve survived and conquered? As I have been dismissed, I am also dismissing and welcoming. I dismiss pretension. I dismiss Love that is clearly a Lust that I call Love because longing is a bitch. I dismiss Friends who make me work for their Friendship when all that they have ever given me are more reasons to work. I dismiss co-workers who have convinced me that they’re working on the weekends in order to have a “leg up.” If I give my employer most of my legs, what’s going to be left for me to walk on? I dismiss the idea of a perfect Black Family because slavery was a bitch. As I have learned me, I’ve expected them to have learned themselves as well. I couldn’t have been more wrong. In the past, I resented them for their lack of growth. Perhaps, they resented me for my own growth. I’m an African American Man Surviving America. Therefore, I dismiss American poli-tricks. They hated voting for Obama. With that being the case, how can they possibly see, hear, or understand me? They don’t. I dismiss the intended idea that convincing me that I’m worthless will work. I welcome my value. I have learned that I am priceless. With that being said, the price that some have placed upon my head has no value. I’m priceless. I survived that which should have destroyed me. I survived loving those that didn’t, or couldn’t, love me. I survived my worst nightmares. I welcome that which I never expected, but waited for. I welcome affirmation. I welcome those that can, and will, love me. You see, I’ve been dismissed. Because I hate conflict and letting go of some of the things that need to be released, I welcome being dismissed. In my dismissals, I find welcoming….Patrick
As always, this week, please do something for someone other than yourself for no other reason than to make their lives better. If you make it to where you’re going, please don’t forget to leave a map for the rest of us. Always Choose Love Because Love Changes Everything.